One of my favorite stories in the Bible happens at the end of John. Jesus has been resurrected. The disciples know he’s truly God. And they are all ecstatic. When Jesus meets Peter and John (and a few other disciples) while they are fishing, Peter is so excited he jumps out of the boat and runs / swims to get to Jesus.
This is typical Peter – who does pretty much everything with action followed by thought.
Fortunately that’s not something God discourages. In fact, it’s part of what makes Peter so much like you and me. We often act and then only later say, “oh yeah, that third slice of cake probably wasn’t a good idea.”
When Peter finally gets to shore, Jesus asks him three times, “do you love me more than all the others.” Peter says “yes” three times. This is Jesus’ way of saying to Peter that he has been restored for denying Jesus three times.
Jesus tells him that he’ll be executed as a martyr. Now that’s probably not exactly what Peter wanted to hear. Because as soon as Jesus says this, the Bible tells us that Peter looks around, and says, “what about John?”
Jesus’ response is simple, “who are you to question this?”
That’s a response that resonates with all of us. Although probably painfully. Frankly I don’t want to suffer. And I don’t want to suffer alone. And if I have to suffer alone I sure as heck want to know why! But with God, we don’t really get all the answers to questions like that. Our role, the role of the faithful, isn’t to question before we act, it’s to listen and then act.
God doesn’t mind our questions. He often answers them (only a short time earlier Jesus let Thomas feel his wounds so that he would believe.) But there are many times when God never fills us in on the details. He never told Job why he had to suffer. He never fully explains to Adam and Eve why eating of the Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil was a bad idea.
Sometimes God wants us to be impulsive. He wants us to jump out of the boat and walk on water (or swim through water). But mostly he wants us to trust him enough to not ask, “what about John?”